God

I believe in God. I look at it this way: we have sent out anthropologists for more than 400 years to the four corners of the globe to search for, and study, indigenous people, human beings that have lived together since time immemorial, but have never known other human beings. We have discovered hundreds of them, and consistently, they have voiced an understanding of a force that permeates their universe and interacts with them. That, in its essence, is our definition of God, so, has a scientist, I find it impossible to deny the existence of God.

If we except the existence of God we must determine what God is. No one can never determine that definitively. All anyone can do is guess. I have guessed.

The universe is made up of mass and energy. Mass is feeling. Energy is thought. The combination of mass and energy is matter, and is God.

Matter permeates the universe. God permeates the universe. Matter communicates with matter throughout the universe through thought and feeling, energy and mass, which is God communicating.

Earlier in my life I assuaged my need to resolve my insanity by developing a method of therapy roughly based on the Freudian theory that suppressed memory lies at the heart of dysfunction, the theory of Reich that all mental suppression has a concomitant physical suppression, and the almost unknowing discovery of a psychologist of the depth necessary to reach resolution.

My repression was great. I had had to repress the feeling when I quickened. To recover I had to remember my quickening. What I remembered was that I arrived here. I know that I came from.

I know that I arrived in this body I now occupy 31/2 months after the start of its gestation, and I have no doubt that when this body no longer can function I will leave.

That is what I know. I can and have, as I am sure you will, supposed many things on that, but they are suppositions, and I could fill a book without finding one that could persevere over another.

The point is that there is a second indicator of something other than life, some "place" where intellectuality can be. It must be within the realm of the universe, but it is not within the realm of life.

I do not know what it means, but I take it as an indicator of the existence of God.